My coaching business is called Big Leap and when I started on my Big Peace journey, I kinda thought that the two ideas were incompatible. Making big leaps can make you feel anxious, scared rather than peaceful.
But in the last month - I've been quiet on the blog because I've been off making all sorts of big leaps in my life -
I've realised that in fact a big leap is actually the way into the big peace. (No, this isn't a plug for my business, honest.)
What I'm realising is that when we are brave, when we have courage, when we 'do the thing we think we cannot do' - we leap right into The Big Peace. When we live the life we know is right for us or take the path that is right for us, yes, it feels scary but ultimately it feels peaceful. It makes me feel fulfilled, on course, on the right path.
When we procrastinate, when we pretend 'we don't know' and hang around in the shallows of making do or tolerating what we don't want, THAT is what can create most anxiety. That low level anxiety, which causes us to numb ourselves with drink or crap telly and makes us feel 'itchy for more', or has her reaching for the better handbag or better house or car. But when you take the leap into making the right decisions (for you) versus the ones that everyone says you should, life opens up and you feel full again. So we don't constantly have to reach for the other stuff to make us happy. Or you feel less grasping anyway.
What confused me was my inner pessimist who is always there screaming at me from the corner of my psyche. I thought that in my 'big peace world' the inner pessimist would be silenced, that I would hear bird song and piped music.
But no, by being brave, the inner pessimist is as loud as ever. Granted, if you tune into his mantra of 'you're not good enough/people will judge you and point/you'll end up a bag lady' rant, then it doesn't feel that peaceful. But if you can smile and wave and do it anyway, it feels like you can leap, embrace the fear and do it anyway. (Susan Jeffers was right)
I've made a big leap this month (can't tell you what yet but I'm sure I will) and although my inner pessimist is screaming, I've never felt so peaceful, on track, on the right path.
What would you do next if you were brave?
When we are brave
